Of goodness and badness and all the pointless things that do not exist.

Past few weeks have been crazy. The company we founded had its first public appearance (you can check the show here) and preparing it consumed most of my day, so there had been a little time left for thinking about other stuff than dresses. However, there was a lot of observation made, but in a way, I would not like to talk about fashion and its whims here, I will however post photos in one of the following blog entries. I wasn´t actually sure what I would like to talk about in this one, but then this morning my yogi master (yes, I have one) posted a video (on the bottom of the page) on facebook that got me all emotional and caught in thinking about us, the people.

 

It is this time of year, when the end - in many aspects - is drawing near and that makes us think about the past we lived, the past we co created and the past we shared. So excuse me for being a little more personal in this entry, I am helplessly caught in the web of reminiscing, memories and plans for the future. This year is special with the supposed end of the world, the regular birth of Savior and inevitable end of the year, they are all pushing us down the alley of self evaluation and the assessment of the year behind, as if “the end” would bring us a completely new and clean start with an empty page to scribble down our daily endeavors to make sense of the continuum we call life. It is needless to say that I do not think world would end in a spectacle we can watch first hand in the front row, however, I do believe things are about to change. Not in a drastic way, that is, rather I imagine its progression in a smooth transition of the human awareness, that I sense present for quite some time.

I am not sure if I have ever mentioned The Brownian motion, I talked about many things here, but I believe Brownian motion is worth mentioning twice and more, for it gives the exact explanation of how we are connected. What is more, it has a lot to do with what that video I mentioned above is about and even more so, it talks the language of the company we founded titled TheCollective, and its philosophy and vision. 

Of Coelho, mistakes and other entrapments of your own wisdom.

I am reading Paulo Coelho´s Aleph. The latest book. The one, that is supposed to be semi autobiographical. I have not yet finished it. To be precise, I have just started, not even 30 pages turned, but I got annoyed so many times already, that I have sincere doubts I will ever finish it. I guess I will, because I rarely let things go after I decided to do them. However, after those few pages reading it, my mind got stirred and a flow of thoughts ran through it preventing me to stay focused at all. I took an honest look to what was going on.

Once I have been writing here about change explaining my point of view. I found support in psychology and pure observation of life´s actions. I said that people do not change. The only thing subject to a change is deteriorating, ever decaying, ever rearranging, ever expanding and always interacting world of Nature ruled by Entropy. So yes, people do change in that sense, but psychologically? No. In their core, people stay the same. What changes, are adopted behavioral patterns. Things we learn along the way. But now, I suddenly found myself in a place, where I cannot but use this term. It describes well what happened to me.  I have simply changed. I am no longer the same Dejan I was 10 years ago, when I devoured Coelho´s books for breakfast.  That will sound really terrible, but I have to ask myself, did I simply outgrow Coelho?

Of change (pt.2), entropy and other failed satisfactions.

Last week I elaborated on change, particularly human capability to change. I made the conclusion about that clear (at least what I think of it), but the talk is far from over. Change is a powerful subject, one of my favorites to be honest. The word change carries the very essence of what gives hope its meaning. It quite shamelessly points out our discomfort when it comes to stability, or let me rephrase it, perpetuation. I consciously chose an emotionally indifferent word that could describe any situation. May it be positive or negative we simply want things to change, hopefully for the better. We get fed up so easily and so fast turning our heads around looking for a better thing to come along, especially when we are caught up in troublesome situation. It is out-with-the-old-in-with-the-new attitude that drives us. 

As it is everything that I write here inspired by what goes on in my or someone else´s life, so it happens that change lately pervades most of the topics I have with my friends. I guess there must be something in the air or maybe it is just the fact we reached that age when we ask ourselves what is going on and reflect on life we led up to this very point, remembering the visions we had when we were 20 and evaluating current manifestations. More and more of my friends complain that their life has come to a halt. Nothing seems to move forward. Everything stays the same. They feel as if some grand master pressed the pause button and wants them to observe the frozen picture on the screen. To see what precisely? What is there to see that one has not already seen? It is, after all, them who lead their life consciously; no one can tell them what else is there. And, is it really true that life stopped even though they feel life stepped into purgatorial state?

Of Change, Temperament and Other manipulations

I usually get in trouble when I talk to people about change, especially when the talk is about how people have changed. See, I do not believe it is possible for a person to change at all. Not even a single bit, at least not there where it matters. Sure, one can have a life changing experience or deep insights, but that does not necessary mean he has changed along with it, too. His life has, the circumstances have, he knows something more about himself, so he needs to adjust and accumulate new behavioral patterns. Learn and adopt; recognize and control; experience and manage. This is how it works. So, there is no sugar coating the subject with me, when my friend tells me she is getting back with her ex-boyfriend, because he supposedly has changed.