Of reality, action and other animals in disagreement.

Obviously, I have hard time following my schedule. A month just went by. When I started this, I haven´t envisioned my blog as a random pop up happening. I wanted for it to be a regular thing, but as I am the proof of how life takes us roads we haven´t anticipated, it should not come to me as a surprise, that yes, a month can go by just like that and that I cannot follow my own plan. Anyways, today it happened again. The need for me to write something down has emerged. It was triggered while I was watching a show on TV, Enlightened. You know it? Well for those who do not, just a little summary.  It is about a woman who, after a nervous breakdown at a job (love issues and betrayal), goes through months of soul searching journey in some Hippy Dippy camp, only to return back home to work at the same company with newly emerged need to help change the world around her. The show is a delight, smart and funny, but I am not here to give a review. Actually, I was intrigued by the thought of doubt about sincerity behind her actions in order to do “Good” and feeling genuine love (read acceptance) for people around her. What is more, I asked myself on what conclusion one can decide what is good for others? 

The character in the series is supposed to be the enlightened one. I still haven´t figure out, if the series is about her actually being enlightened or she is yet to become that. If the second is true I have no problem with it, however, if the first holds, than I cannot stay calm at this disfigurement of what being enlightened is supposed to mean. I can deduce from it one single fact, that there is a difference between acting and actually being enlightened. See, I cannot get rid of the feeling that her character is acting upon what she perceives as good and is not what actually IS good. Her actions are walking on a thin line between revenge and justice. Speaking of the latter, we do lean on it way too many times when we reason our actions. So my question here now is, does the perceived correspond with actual reality? Or, for that matter, what is reality?

Of abilities, decisions and other misconceptions of love.

I wanted to talk about misinterpretations and taking responsibility for interpretations others make of us. Well, I changed my mind. I do not want to sound grim or defensive. There will be time for that when emotions subside and situations grow colder. Instead I have something more festive to talk about, Love. Yup, love again. But you have to admit, that is the sole subject that can never be discussed enough, plus it always invites people's dreamy expression on their faces. And how could one ignore that happiness? 

So many of you have asked me privately, what was going on with me and my status updates/reports on Facebook. Why the culinary titles of my insights as pieces of beef? Well, it started as simple posting of the excerpts from my conversations with my new found (and lost) love interest, but it soon became something more, a project. I will not describe it yet, but it has a point. However, it slowly moved from what is on the outside into inner perceptions. My beef, my love, my rules, my decisions!

I know I have been talking about love on two or more occasions. I was somehow detached from the subject matter, though. This is actually what I am trying to do here. To take things from my private life and lift myself above it to get the better perspective of how I think things work. This time, I am personal. Not because I have any secret agenda. No, this time I am personal, because the message could not be more insightful to me. Let me explain.